Darkness:
The night is filled with an unsettling silence, accompanied by a profound sense of pain. Amid darkness, I am left alone with my thoughts, grappling with unanswered questions. I find myself stranded in a state of existential uncertainty, desperately seeking an escape.
Occasionally, I am reminded of the importance of perseverance. My life has never followed a predictable path, but now I find myself in a state of uncertainty, unsure of where it will lead. The current circumstances are not ideal or enjoyable.
I have accomplished much in my life, putting in hard work and making wise choices. I have lived a fulfilling life thus far, one that I have worked diligently for. There are moments when it feels as though I have lost everything, although that may not be entirely accurate. Perhaps I have lost a great deal, but change is inevitable. Nevertheless, as a human being, endurance is my greatest asset.
It is not the feeling of loneliness that troubles me, but rather the path that led me to this desolate place. Clearly, I have not done enough, perhaps overlooked something crucial. Unfortunately, there are few avenues that lead to compassion and wisdom, offering no solace. Trust is eroded, leaving me without confidants.
I go against the norm because I have witnessed the consequences of blindly following others’ expectations. Perhaps my rebellion is a way to avoid becoming like those whom I do not wish to resemble. Many people offer advice, but often it is based on their own perspectives rather than genuine empathy or understanding of my “unique” circumstances.
This is what I pray for: the ability to persist. No one possesses all the answers… but if we keep moving forward, we will eventually reach our destination.
Is it a risky endeavor? Perhaps… but what isn’t? The outcomes will determine the wisdom of our choices. If we refrain from making decisions, we will never progress. If we avoid failure, it means we have not truly attempted. It is imperative to envision aspirations of such magnitude that their realization spans a lifetime, instilling trepidation within us. This grandiosity ensures that our ego remains subdued, preventing it from assuming the role of a commanding force.
Grim thoughts disturb my mind, as hope dissipates and despair takes its place. Though burdened heavily, I bear it alone. I strive to maintain discipline, patience, kindness, acceptance, forgiveness, and the ability to let go.
Otherwise, I will remain seated in darkness for the duration of my existence.
